Monday, August 2, 2010

Days like this........






I havent posted much the last week...Once again there are big changes here on the homefront. My daughter Lisa, has once again taken the kids and moved to Portland....Yes, again. I knew it was going to happen, but I guess I was still hoping beyond hope that she would change her mind. She left yesterday and is now in Portland...kids and all. She left a good job, her first home on her own and a built in babysitter to go back and try to make it work with the baby's father...There is nothing I could say to make her think about it. So I said goodbye....again, and have been crying oceans of tears. Yesterday I went to bed and pulled the covers over my head and stayed that way for 24 hours. Today I am up and ready to live again. Thank God for my wonderful husband who puts up with my theatrics and my crazy family. Lisa took Daniel, my oldest grandson back to his mom on the way, so it is very quiet here....Two days ago, Don took some pictures of the kids and I in the yard...Here are my beautiful babies.....













Now I am going to go sew away my sadness.......

25 comments:

bad penny said...

Oh I feel for you - I really do.
This is heartbreaking when you have tried so hard & worry for the future.
You have done a wonderful thing & I'm sure yo will be there again when needed.
Life just isn't easy is it?

Trudy Callan said...

Melinda, I am so sorry to hear this. I pray that God brings you comfort.

Pat said...

My heart breaks for you, too. I have a daughter with no commonsense in that regard, either, and I haven't seen her daughter (my granddaughter in about 4 years now). I pray your hurt will ease up soon and you can be comforted by knowing you did a lot for those little ones and they love you for it.

PaTcHwOrK jEnN said...

So Sorry! Sounds like you need to take a road trip in your cowboy camper, I hear portland is beautiful.
HUGS!

Patty said...

Melinda, I'm sorry I know how much you love your grand kids and cherish the time you spend with them. I pray things work out for your daughter and that she learns that you don't necessarily need a man to make you happy, but if she doesn't I hope she makes sure she keeps the kids in your life so they can see from your example that a stable lifestyle is possible.

Julie Harward said...

I feel that "hole in the heart" feeling with you...a grandma's love is a powerful thing...but as usual we have no say in what our kids decide to do, we just have to let go. Maybe you can make a trip to go see them soon! :D

gin said...

I'm so sorry, too. I know you will miss all those babies, and your daughter too. Hopefully, you can go see them!!

Bleubeard and Elizabeth said...

Such sad news. I understand your pain, but since she has made her decision, you must now remove your sad hat and put on your mother hat and be supportive of her. Chances are, she is going to need you again sooner than you can imagine. SEW away your sadness.

PeggyR said...

I'm so sorry. Just take one day at a time! That's all I'm doing right now as well...

Needled Mom said...

Oh Melinda. I am so sorry to read this. I can't begin to understand what you must be going through, but please know that I will be praying for all.

BEAR's Mom said...

Sweetie you are in my prayers ~ the whole family ...

Been there ~ done that...lost so many years with #1 granddaughter...

GOD works his miracles...she's back in our lives again...

Hang in there...i can hear the hum of your sewing machine now!!!

~victoria~

Kristin said...

Oh, I am so sorry! I know how close you are with them and I wish you the best as you adjust to the new circumstances. At least they know how much they mean to you and who knows, maybe they will be closer again soon! Your pictures are just beautiful and the love is so obvious.
Thank you too for your sweet comments and for placing the picture on your sidebar - it was so cool to see it there! Thank you once again, Kristin xo

sarah said...

ok ouch! that had to hurt! but i will never say i am sorry, i will say i am hopeful! you are a wonderful example of building your own happiness! she will figure things out! let go and let God! you and your family will be in our prayers! (:

Stempelientje said...

Ohhh Melinda,I am so sorry t hear this! I assume Portland is far away from you....
I hope your daughter realizes that children need grandparents too!
My daughter is regular crying that she has no family,no grandparents who are there for her.She has only one grandmother and she lives in Thailand,last time she saw my little girl was on het first birthday- she is 7 and a half now....I wish your daughter all the happiness in the world.but she should consider others too I think.
To start of with her children.
I will be thinking of you and am glad you have Don by your side.

Mandy said...

i love thoie photos....hope with all your heart it will work this time...your daughter obviously still loves him...hope hes not abusive tho...gee....hugs from al the way over here to you....xxx

Jenny said...

Melinda, Oh words cannot express what I feel for you here. Remember that the past does not always define the present.

FEAR is just future events appearing real...it does not mean it will always be so...

What can I do?

I will send prayers and hugs and friendship your way.

And prayers and hope to surround those beautiful grandchildren of yours as they continue this tumultous journey through someone elses life.

Oh Melinda.

I'm so sorry.

Laura said...

Tough times! I can imagine how you feel on many sides. Adjusting to the distance between you and the grandchildren, hoping your daughter is making the right decision. Lets hope so. If not sometimes it is necessary to go backwards just to realize how far forwards you had been stepping in the right direction. Lets hope it is just the process of getting it right for the future. Does this all make sense? However not easy or happy for you or the kids at the moment. They will sure miss there wonderful grandma!

Barb said...

I am sorry, I know it leaves a void in your life as well as the worry about them. What beautiful kids...

Jenxo said...

im so sorry melinda, lifes sucks sometimes.

i cant imagine the big hole its left your life however im sure you will find wonderful ways to fiil it...
there is so much love in those photos,those kids are all the richer for having you in their lives...xxx

Yarni Gras! said...

Oh I'm so sorry...I know you'll miss them terribly.

Lorraine said...

major major hugs for all this upheaval once again in your life..am just glad you have got yourself a good man to look after you

Madelyn said...

Awe, I know that really hurts. Here's a hug for you.

purplepaint said...

Ohhh, I'm so sorry Melinda! Here's a big giant HUG!

Laurie said...

OH MELINDA!! Big, big hugs, sweetie.

Robin (rsislandcrafts) said...

Somehow I missed this post (and a few others). I'm so sorry the kids are gone again. I'm sure your house must be so quiet and empty now. Love the pictures :)