Tuesday, June 10, 2008

Baby shower by mail....




I have been working on my little sister, Julie's baby shower gift. A quilt of course...She is due the twenty fifth of August but the shower is next week in Utah. Obviously her present is going to be mailed. She is having a little boy which she is pretty excited about. I made her a crown too since she is such a little queen bee. I am going to make her friend, the hostess promise that I get a picture of her crabby little face wearing it. You have to know her to understand. I have been busy around here with boy scouts and brownies and hall painting and a little sewing but mostly I have been hiding away. Tomorrow is my daughters birthday. My baby who I don't even know how to get a hold of. ...the drug addict. This is such a heart breaking subject and awful personal for a blog post but it is weighing on my heart and mind. I have almost had the kids a year now and I guess I was hoping that they, of all things, would bring her around. Guess I was wrong. I walk around feeling like instead of a heart I have a sack of cement in my chest. It never goes away, sometimes I just can hide it better than others...Not doing so good today I guess....Sometimes being a mother is the saddest job in the world....

9 comments:

zquilts said...

Oh! Melinda. Be strong. Your story touched my heart. You are doing everything that you can in keeping the children, stable and happy. It's one of those times when you just have to hold on to your faith and strength. My prayers are offered for you this night.

Cindy said...

Melinda, Those kids are so lucky to have you there for them. My thoughts are prayers are with you.

amy said...

You are doing an amazing thing by caring for them. Not many grandmas would do that and do such a wonderful job with them. They are so much better off with you than her now. Hope she comes around eventually the whole situation can't be easy. Blessings to you. Oh and the quilt and crown are very cool too. I know she will love them!

quiltcrazygal said...

What a beautiful crown and quilt! What a lucky baby to have such wonderful family! Love your site! Cheers, Jenna Louise

Angelcat said...

Stay strong Melinda, those kids are so lucky to have you. I can't imagine how hard it must be not knowing where she is but in keeping your adorable grandkids near you keep a piece of your daughter near too.

Pearl said...

Hi Melinda... was so good to see that you'd stopped by and enjoyed the Vettriano post... not so good, though, to read of your sadness... I can only just imagine how you must be feeling and my heart aches for you and your family. I'll be holding positive thoughts that your daughter will find healing strength and that your heart will be lifted and made to feel joy once again. You're such a precious woman to care for your grandbabies as you do... I hope and pray that you'll be strong during this rough time and that soon you'll find yourself on a smooth path in life.

~blessings~
Pearl

Helen in the UK said...

Love the baby shower stuff!!
Sending you BIG HUGS from the UK. You can only do so much for your children - you are doing wonderful things for your grandkids and you must constantly remember that :)

Heather Robinson said...

I can't even begin to imagine what this must be like for you. Those children are so lucky to have you as the steady in their lives. Warm hugs to you...

Sherry said...

Sometimes being a mom is hard! I haven't experienced quite the same thing with my kids, but we have definitely had some very rough and scary times with my boys. Fortunately, they have always come back home eventually. I hope the best for you, your daughter and the kids!

The things you made for your sister are really nice! I bet she loves everything when she gets it. I laughed at the thought of a woman in labor wearing a crown! How funny!!

Have a wonderful weekend!
Sherry