Airing my dirty laundry........

Just how personal do you get on a blog? Well, I am about to get there. I have been so grateful for the last year and a half of my life that things were good. When my youngest daughter took the kids back to Portland it was tough, but I had a husband who loved me and was supportive while I went thru piecing my life back together once again. Have you ever had so much misfortune at times that it embarasses you? Well, I come before you all embarassed and humiliated and devastated. On Friday, Don, my husband announced that he was leaving me and going to Oregon. I was blindsided. We have no quarrels about any of the usual stuff. We have been good friends to each other and I thought we loved each other....At first I thought he was joking...he wasnt. He says that he is retired and wants a companion and he is alone too much. Ok, except he is the one who suggested I go back to work full time.
I was speechless...He told me he was going to his sons house....He never went there...He went to Texas instead apparently to get some companionship with a 69 year old woman. The only reason I figured it out was because he left an email and credit card trail. He called tonight with the woman beside him and told me "I will get over it in a few months." I feel abandoned and hopeless.
I try so hard to be a good person. I try to be a good friend, and I know I was a good wife. I have never thought of myself as a victim or pushover, but apparently I must be. My dad and my sister are just sick for me....I havent heard from the kids. I hope I survive this because I have been walking the edge for a long time and I feel broken....thanks for listening.......Melinda